1 word, big impact.

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Anxiety.

Let’s think about this work for a moment. Tell me what does it mean to you?

I live with anxiety. I struggle with this literally every single day. I have to work extremely hard to not let this rule my life and to have the minimal effect possible on my loved ones.

Now I have heard my whole life almost that it is not easy to love someone who suffers from anxiety. This is a very true statement. I am lucky that I do have some friends and family members who can relate and understand. Needless to say, I am extremely grateful for them. However, I also have some people that are closest to me and well, they do not understand anxiety at all. This makes somethings with them rather difficult to say the least. They have tried to understand it. Now for that extra effort I am also grateful. I mean I totally get that it is emotional on both end to love someone with anxiety. But there are some things to remember.

  • Like they are more than their anxiety. I am not perfect but neither are you. You are more than your “faults/imperfections.” Well so am I.
  • Anxiety is also VERY Exhausting. Anxiety causes people to live in a hyper tense state. We are on alert, our minds are constantly racings. It is rare for us to be calm and settled.
  •  We also get overwhelmed easily. For me I get overwhelmed by the smallest of things and then my mind just wants to freeze or like disappear. It is very hard on me.
  •  We are very aware that our anxiety is often irrational. As you think oh we are dramatic or ridiculous and irrational. Please try to remember that we cannot, I repeat, we cannot  pick and choose what triggers our anxiety.
  •  As you are trying to relate or understand. How about you actually listen to us. We do explain our feelings. We will tell you when we are having a issue. All you have to do is ACTUALLY listen to us when we are talking to you.
  •  We do appreciate you sticking with us. Trying to understand us and be there for us. It means a lot.

I could keep going but I do not want to overwhelm anyone. But leave me some love. I want to know your thoughts and opinion. What does anxiety mean to you?

Also above all remember People with anxiety are AWESOME!

Peace, Love, & Happiness

From Mama Owl

Hello I am BACK!

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First of all to any of my followers who are still there and will actually see this I wanna say how much I have missed you!! As well as I have missed writing. I finally feel like I can add this back into my balance of life. So let’s start with a catch up shall we.

My last post was telling you all wonderful people that I was set to be induced to have our beautiful baby girl Areaunna Lynea Simmons. That was 6 months ago. Yes I know crazy right. Well it has taken me that long to find some kind of sanity and balance again in my life. Going from having a 4 year old to having a 4 year old and a infant again is crazy. Plus me working on my cake/bakery business as well. I have just now finally gotten to where I add me and myself into play in my beautiful but hectic life.

Xavier has adjusted pretty well. He definitely adores and loves his sister so much. It is amazing to see them and their bond grow with each passing day. Shortly after she was born we had Xavier play t-ball this year.He loved it but he did not like getting out. Some games were good others it was a fight. But hey he is 4. He has asked to play it again next year. Which makes me very happy. I want my kids to be involved and have things they are interested in and make friends. Plus they learn team work, responsibility, commitment, integrity and so much more. He also started Prek/VPK this year. Currently he is on is 2nd week and he is having some difficulty adjusting.

Areaunna is growing so fast. As I stated she is 6 months old. She has 2 teeth, which she got at 4 months. She crawls all over the place and she pulls her self up to stand and will walk with assistance and she says Da-Da.

Also this summer we got to have my fiance’s daughter come visit. It was so much fun. We got to take our first family vacation. Allen and I had NEVER EVER gone on any trip together so this was also a first there. We took all 3 kids to LegoLand then to Ga and Tn. It was a short and fast few days but it was also jammed packed with fun and memories I will always treasure and love.

Let’s see I also have been doing great and having fun doing my cakes as well as now I work as a dispatcher for a local towing company. So between working and adjusting to having 2 kids. Plus adding my workouts and fitness into the mix and time for my amazing fiance. That is why it has taken me so long to come back. But I truly missed you all and writing so Here I am once again! 🙂 I will be doing more posts. If there is something I can post about that you would be interested in please let me know.

Well this is all for now. Enoy the pictures! And most of all leave me some love! I will check out any blog inks I get and follow anyone back well.

Peace Love & Happiness

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Oh Happy day or should I say Holidays!

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Happy Monday Everyone!

So I sure have missed you wonderful people. I got so swamped lately I have been running around like a chicken with it’s head cut off. I can’t even put into words how good it feels to be sitting here, semi quiet house, with some moments to not only breathe but also to write some. Let’s play some catch up shall we.

I have started doing my cakes more. Which is great but also as some know doing cakes is not easy work. I also have been adjusting to being a stay at home wife and mommy again. I am now 31 weeks pregnant..aka 8 months. Which means I am beyond exhausted constantly. I also have not been sleeping. I also have been having contractions already. Some braxton hicks of course but man yesterday I was in tears and could not talk through them. I also have been cooking more since I have more time. I can try new recipes and stuff so as you know that is a plus. And been busy gearing up and celebrating or preparing for the Holidays.

Now as I stated I am no longer working due to being pregnant I was laid off. LAME and yes illegal. Which of course has caused a HUGE amount of stress to be added. I am so blessed to say that despite being tight on money we are still able to give our kids a great Christmas. Now by no means do I measure the holidays by gifts under the tree or money spent. To me the most important things are my family and friends and food on the table and making memories. However, we have 2 kids together plus our first on the way. So to be able to spoil them and give them is a great feeling to me. As well as to spoil my love. Which I can’t go into what he is getting since he does sometimes read this. 🙂 But I am excited to share what I am making him after the holidays.

I have been doing the elf on the shelf and other Christmas crafts or games with my son. He has enjoyed those. We have made cookies, made ornaments, decorated the house inside and out, we have painted crafts, done gingerbread house/train, watched Christmas movies, had hot coco, sang Christmas Carols, & so much more! I love it and he loves it. But most of all it is great memories.

My amazing man has been working his butt off to provide, specially with me not working but also to make sure we all have nice things for Christmas. His company has him works every single day til Christmas day. like 2 weeks straight. CRAZINESS! But as much as we do not like it. We are very grateful and blessed for the steady job he has. Things could always be worse.

Christmas is here in the next few days and we are busy preparing but I would not have it any other way. 🙂

What are some traditions or memories are you and your loved ones doing or do?

Here are some awesome pictures from recently 🙂
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One of our Elf’s adventures lol
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Growing a candy cane
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Xavier seeing Santa
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Batgirl cake I made
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Cowboy cake I made
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Alabama cake
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Grinch cupcake I made for my love
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Last week at 30 weeks. 🙂
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Off to the Christmas Party for my loves work

As always I wish each of you all lots of peace, love & happiness
-Nerdy Mama Owl

Fun in the Kitchen

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Last week was our 2 year anniversary. Which with all we got going on lately we did not really celebrate in big way. Which is fine. He spoiled me in other ways just we didn’t get to go out without Xavier or anything like that. I have not posted bout this but I actually stopped working last week. I got laid off due to being pregnant. Worse part is they waited til I was almost 7 months pregnant to do it. So now me finding a new job is difficult to say the least. So with 2 kids and one on the way to support, plus the holidays money is SUPER tight to say the least. But as you know I live my life the best I can with positivity. Like I am once again a stay at home mommy & wife. Which is great to have this time with my son again. Helping him play and learn. Plus I am getting lots done I have been wanting to get done. Nesting helps push it along as well. I am a crafter as ya’ll know so I am also able to focus on that and I do sell my crafts so that is nice. Plus since I can do cakes I am able to actually take orders for them. Which today I got a order to do a construction/tool cake. I am super excited about that.

Anyways, with last week being out 2 year anniversary. I spoiled my love a little more than I usually do. He went out and had a guys night which he never gets and has never done. He got to use the poker set I got him. He enjoyed that. I surprised him with Oatmeal cookies, his favorite, a LARGE card, & then I made a homemade blueberry sauce for him to put on his Fluffy french toast I made him. Now it is not regular french toast since it is dipped into a homemade custard like mix. He enjoyed it and was so thankful for it! I also made a special dinner. I made Chicken wings which I marinated in Dale’s seasoning sauce. We had a green salad, homemade scalloped potatoes, & baked beans. Also My love usually works nights so we are opposite shifts. But he is currently on days. No idea on how long this will last and being on days he doesn’t get as many hours. But positives are we get to have family dinners again. We are on the same schedule and I get to go to sleep wrapped in his arms each night.

Here are some pictures & the recipes in case any of you want to try them. 🙂

BlueBerry Sauce:

This recipe makes about 4 cups of the sauce. But if you think this is unnecessary large amount, please reconsider. This is very versatile sauce. You can eat it with your pancakes, waffles, pour over yogurt or vanilla ice cream. The sauce is wonderful served with a lemon cheesecake or pound cake. And it will keep up to a week in the refrigerator. Also can freeze it. Jar it and makes a great gift. 🙂 That is what I have done with some of our extra.

Ingredients:

  • 4 cups fresh or frozen blueberries (it is not necessary to thaw frozen berries)
  • 2/3 cup water
  • 2/3 cup sugar
  • Grated zest and juice of 1 lemon
  • 3 tbsp cornstarch
  • ¼ cup water

Directions: In a large saucepan combine the blueberries, water, sugar, lemon zest and juice. Bring to a boil over medium-high heat, then reduce the heat and simmer gently for a minute or two; the berries should soften slightly, and some of their skins will pop. In a small bowl, mix together the cornstarch and water, and add it into the berries. Simmer for a couple of minutes, stirring constantly, until slightly thickened. You have to cook the cornstarch sufficiently enough to get rid of the chalky starch flavor. Taste to be sure it’s gone. Remove from the heat, cool, then refrigerate tightly covered.

Fluffy French Toast:

Makes about 7 to 8 pieces.

  • 1/4 cup all-purpose flour
  • 1 cup milk
  • 3 eggs, slightly beaten
  • scant 1/8 teaspoon salt
  • 1/2 teaspoon ground cinnamon
  • 1 teaspoon pure vanilla extract
  • 1 tablespoon granulated sugar
  • 7-8 slices whole wheat bread (or the bread of your choice!)
  • Butter or oil, for greasing pan

In large bowl, add flour and slowly whisk in milk until well combined. Whisk in the eggs, salt, cinnamon, vanilla extract and sugar until well combined.Heat a skillet or flat-top grill over medium-high heat. Allow butter to melt and bubble in pan.Place a slice of bread in the cinnamon-custard mixture, flipping several times to fully coat. You want the bread to be thoroughly drenched but not completely falling apart. When pan is nice and hot (almost smoking), carefully place fully-coated slices of bread in pan. Cook over medium-high until bottom of toast is crisp and golden brown. Flip and cook for another couple of minutes, until bottom is golden brown. Serve hot off the grill, buttered and drizzled with maple syrup. You can freeze french toast to serve up the next morning or a month from now. Wrap up the slices in plastic wrap or parchment paper and place in a freezer bag. Just pop them in the toaster and they’re ready to eat!

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Hehe those flowers are over 2 weeks old now still gorgeous.

Well that is all for tonight. I hope each of you have had a wonderful week and if you have not well hey tomorrow is FRIDAY!

✌PEACE💟 LOVE & :)HAPPINESS

From 💜Nerdy Mama Owl💋

A struggle for me but I am proud of myself

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Health and fitness is very important to me. Anyone that knows me can tell you this. Now I have not always been this way. Growing up I was always thin and fit from being active. Once I got my son my body completely changed.  I gained 70 pounds with my pregnancy with my son. I hated it! I lost myself and my confidence. I can’t say weather for sure it is society that influent that.  I find all women beautiful no matter size or figure. However for me, my preference is I feel better being small. I however don’t want to to just be small I want to be healthy and fit.  I want too be able.to chase my kids around and play and not be put of breath. I feel better bout myself the more fit and toned I am. I like seeing progress and my hard work pay off.
Now a diet…is literally impossible for me. I love food, especially sweets. So it isn’t easy all the time.
I took about 2 years for me to get my body where I felt like me a day was happy. I was back in a size 0-3 but I also was toned. I have muscles you could see in my arms and legs I still had my curves. I even started having my abs show. My hard work was paying off. But I made a promise to get my body back. The promise was to my husband and my son.  But my husband is now my ex husband. So it was more for my son and me. Now I get to help others reach their goals and I love it!  I also am showing my son how to be healthy and fit. I want him to always find the happiness in that. 
I of course am now pregnant.  I do struggle GREATLY on being okay with my body changing and gaining weight.  I know it is for my baby girl so worth it. But it is extremely difficult for me to go through this. I have just now at bout 7 months pregnant gained 20 pounds. I still have a lot of my muscle, thank God! I was a size 3 and now I am a size 5/6 so not a lot bit my hips and my thighs are bigger and I hate it.   I still got my top abs and when I flex you can See the definition show some.  I know I will get it back. But it is so difficult for me to except. I never used.to be like this so I also have being so hard on myself. I have managed.to stay fit and healthy for this pregnancy.  I am so proud of myself for it. My yoga us extremely important to me still. I am still smaller than I was with my son so I find peace with that.
I know I am being silly to some of you. I love seeing and encourage everyone to be confidence but also to be happy and healthy. 🙂
But it is harder for me to accept it.
I hate being a hypocrit. Since I am only human and at times can’t accept my stuff.
When others tell me they are inspired by me I am like why? Lol I am nothing special.  But then I get reminded by my loved ones why. So I am grateful for anyone I help a small can show it is possible to be happy healthy and fit. No matter what your goals. 🙂
Here are some pictures of my weight loss and my yoga 🙂

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These have the dates the first is 4/11/11 my son was born 2/1/11 so was about 2 months post baby

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The now 2 as taken in may literally 1 weeks before I got pregnant.

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This picture was May 5th. RIGHT before I got pregnant. 

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These are the most recent pictures of me.

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And here are some yoga and fitness. 🙂

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Zombie run!! I was 4 almost 5 weeks pregnant

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We did the color run 🙂 I was bout 2.5 months pregnant here.

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What is something you all struggle with?
I hope each of you that reads this knows you are all amazing and beautiful!
Sending Peace Love & Happiness to you and your loved ones.

Love Always
Nerdy Mama Owl

Time for Thanks

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So I keep forgetting to post this. Things are quite hectic with us lately. But not going into that. This is a time to be positive and thankful.
I want my son to know the reason for the holidays, that it isn’t about gifts and being greedy. One way we are doing this is a family tradition of ours. “Our Thankful Tree.”
Now this is something really simple but also fun for all of us. And I must say it makes for a great decoration.
We went walking in the woods and got a small tree branch. We then collected rocks as well. Which is a ton of fun for my son He for some reason has a a fascination with rocks. No idea why or where it came from. He is always collecting them and bringing them inside. He picked up rocks no matter where we are at.
Then we spray painted the tree silver. That is what color Xavier wanted. We got one of our large Mason jars and placed the rocks & also added some green marbles in it. I still need to get some pretty ribbon to tie around the jar. 🙂 We cut put some leaves and each day we each add a leaf that had something we are thankful for on it. Last I hot glue the leaves on the branches.
I put our 2 white mini pumpkins around it and our small pumpkin we used in pictures.
Slowly decorating for the fall seasons.

Here are the pictures. What do ya’ll think? What are you thankful for?  What are your fall decorations? Do you have any family traditions? 

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Just before we painted it lol he was excited

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The paint we used

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Also I am gonna share my Day 5 what I am thankful for. I am grateful for my amazing man! This is what I got to wake up too. He works evenings &over nights so he gets home at like 330-530am. The fact that he stopped when I know he is exhausted means even more. I am so blessed & grateful for him. Can’t thank God enough for sending him to me & my son. It is a amazing feeling to find someone that loves me & here for me. But to find a man that is here for my son and loves him probably more than he loves me is priceless. There are so words. Now we have a baby girl on the way of our own & I couldn’t be happier.  We have literally been through hell in our relationship yet somehow we always make it work. He is patient to with me. He supports us in every way. And so much more I could go on & on. I love him and am glad he is my best friend and my other half. ♡ We got something that rare and special. From all we have been through in our past and since being in each others lives we are able to appreciate our love and connection that much more. 🙂

Well I hope you have a great day! 🙂
Sending ✌Peace, 💜Love, & 😄Happiness to all of you! God Bless!

💚🎀Nerdy Mama Owl🎀💚

Craft & Play Time Our Crazy Life

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Good Day To All You Wonderful People!

First let me say a HUGE thank you for all the new followers and the love ya’ll have given me. It is so amazing! I also have found so many new blogs thanks to you guys!

Okay so I have told you I am live a SUPER CRAZY Busy life. Which is totally incredible in itself. This past weekend went by so fast, it is insane. But it was so packed! We loved every minute. We had a fun time decorating our front door for Halloween. Which I will be showing. So simple too, which as us busy moms know scores points in our books. My boss’ birthday was Wednesday. So Friday I made her chocolate cupcakes with a peppermint buttercream frosting, topped with a York peppermint patty (picture posted below).  Her and I eat the heck out of the York Patties since being I have been pregnant. Also I made football cupcakes for my youngest nephews football game. It was supposed to be the last game of the season but the Eagles kicked butt and WON! So now we are in for the Championships! I made green cupcakes with footballs on top (Pictures posted below). Then we had some errands to run. Got to have a nice lunch with my love just the two of us. That was refreshing. Then we headed over to Turkey Creek for the Pizza Party that was going on for my oldest nephew. They won their soccer game as well that day. My son spotted turtles and was in HEAVEN. He has been asking for a fish and a turtle for Christmas. Seeing the turtles there did nothing but encourage that desire. Xavier alsohad a birthday party and trunk or treating to go to as well. Then there was cleaning and projects around the house we worked on as well. We also made homemade playdough which my son turned into growing goo. Silly boy. It was a ton of fun tho! We got so much going on. I must say I LOVE IT! These are moments of making memories. And moments that you get being a mom. Best Job in the world right 🙂

This coming weekend is trick or treating, another birthday, the boys sports games. My sisters birthday as well. Plus lots of other activities. Which I will share as they happen.

I have started planning my sons 4th Birthday Party. Which is gonna be a BLAST! So we got holidays, road trips, Birthdays, & the birth of our beautiful baby girl coming in just a few weeks to few short months. Best part is I get to experience it all with my amazing son & my amazing man. What more can I ever ask for?

Alright I has a LONG Monday and it is now after midnight so I am gonna leave it here and chat more soon!

Hope you enjoy these pictures as well. Thanks in advance for any love you beautiful people leave me.

Peace, Love, & Happiness,

Nerdy Mama Owl, L. Akin.

York Peppermint Patty Cupcakes
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Football cupcakes I made for the team
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Doctor Who cake I had a order for. The customer wanted simple. It is all edible.
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Tardis pumpkin done.
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What can you do with a white sheet, Scissors, tape, and black construction paper. Make a door look like a Skull. 🙂
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This is the Chicken Curry recipe. A favorite. I learned this from my mother in law since It is Thomas’ favorite. One of my favorite memories is in her kitchen learning it.
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Silly Pictures Time with my Xman! Love my son so much. He is so full of life!
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Us cheering for Anthony at football!!’
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Xavier found a moth at the game.
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Football Game!:Go Eagles!
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